Ashley: So…have you spoken to…Olivia recently?

She asked. I could tell she was a little nervous about bringing that subject up. I really didn’t want her to bring it up at all but…she did. I stabbed a triangle piece of my pancake and ate it. I swallowed the breaded syrupy goodness and then answered her.

Spencer: Well not really since our falling out.

I said and things got quiet. We continued to eat in silence but Ashley broke it once again.

Ashley: You know its ok. For you to be her friend. I mean I don’t want it to sound like you have to have my permission to talk to her or that I’m giving it…that’s so not the case I’m just saying if it’s because of me…the reason you haven’t talked to her then…you can. You should. I realized that I was being childish and I never even really gave you time to explain or even the benefit of the fucking doubt. It was such an asshole move on my part to just try and write you off. I’m over being stupid like that and I especially don’t want you to…hate me or something because you feel like I’m not letting you have your own life and be friends with her. I don’t want that. Ever.

Ashley said finishing and I really admired her for doing that. I knew that she didn’t like Olivia but she knows that she does mean something to me. She’s willing to sacrifice her own sanity to make me happy and that…makes me happy that she would even consider doing that for me. Although the suggestion may not seem like much to anyone else, it meant a lot to me. Because it means that through our separation she was able to grow up. She was able to realize that in relationships, there sometimes has to be compromise. I think she realized that and I admired her for that. I truly did.

Spencer: Thank you…

I said softly, putting my fork down and reaching across the table to grab her hand.

Spencer: It means a lot to me that you would do this. And to let you know…I could never hate you and you definitely don’t make me feel any resentment towards you because I feel like I can’t live my life. I don’t feel that way at all. I couldn’t…because the truth is…you are my life. Yeah outside factors are good and so are family and friends…but if I didn’t have any of that, you would be all I need. You are my family and you are my best friend…So thank you and I just hope that in the future, you can trust me enough to not break your heart because I would never, could never, do that to you.